I don’t know why I’m so weird Pt. I

I don't know why I'm so weird
Yet, in one of my lucid dreams
I'm living with half a dozen of guy and a girl in this huge 3 floored bungalow
And the girl… Well for no apparent reason is my love interest
Those guy stay up all night.. fighting, debating, creating
On one such evening all of em gathered for a show down
Work was on the line and they were up to beat the clock
I worked in a parallel universe to them
Yet our residence… in the same dimension
Tired, I slam opened the door
Empty stomach grumbled
And there she came with a wide smile and a plate full of food
Maybe, exactly because of that she was my oasis
She understood me better than anybody
Her face hinted that even she had a marathon day
The white loose tee seemed to cover her beauty perfectly…. Strong yet fragile
She sat with me till I ate my plate clean
My stomach was full but she seemed more satiated
I went to check out those guys and by mistake while walking pulled a pin from it's socket
Suddenly two of the screens went and there was chaos everywhere
Cussed and yelled at… I left angrily for my bed on the second floor
My face was burning with anguish and rage
Yet, work wasn't going to complete it self
So I took out my laptop and starting punching keys

Work… Work… Work… Who the fuck yells for such a silly reason my brain said
Again I reminded myself… Work… Work… Work

And after half an hour she was back again
She knew what had happened
But, innocently she came and sat by my bed
Looked into my eyes and took my hand in her hand
And commanded.. Keep that work aside
I obliged because she was oasis in this desert called life
She removed her T-shirt and threw it on to the laptop
The bed was small… Enough only for one guy
Yet she managed to snuggle
Her bare back touched my chest
Arms so soft that even a feather might slip on it
The warmth she radiated filled the abyss with me
Her innocence absorbed my rage
And her blood mixed with mine
Cooled it down
Everything happened in a matter of seconds
And I was looking at her face while she fell asleep
I said to myself…
Maybe this is what oasis actually is !
It fills you without you even realising…

Suddenly, as I fill her in my eyes
And make copies of her in my memory
A heavy male voice ask for me from thr floor below
Slowly as I get up after putting a warm rug on her
And about to leave the bed, I realise she's still holding my hand while asleep
She murmurs, "Don't give up on yourself and stop getting angry re…"
And I smile… Oasis indeed !

I walk down the stairs to the floor when these cavemen were now lying on the couch and around the room
Chips and few more snacks.. ( A treat to themselves for getting work done )
They all look at me…
One of them while chewing mouthful of potato chips says…
Don't get bothered by such silly stuff…
We are men and this is how it's meant to be !
Another one slyly putters…. " He only needs a reason to have her around " and winks
And the room crashed into laughter
Even I've grinned…. Still thinking of her innocent face
Who said it's an illusion when in my mind it's all real

-N.B.

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